I have been wrestling for months with the idea of having a repeat C-section.
If you haven’t read about our first C-section, you can HERE.
Needless to say, every day I would lay the whole thing before the Lord and then pick it right back up again (usually in the dark, at night, in bed) and cry myself to sleep at the overwhelming fear of surgery (especially things like giant needles going into my spine), the reminders of the physically uncomfortable surgery aftermath, and the general disappointment that I will never be one that gets to experience a natural birth.
Fears and anxieties had no place in my heart that day as they rolled me into the OR.
“I sought the Lord and He answered me, He delivered me from all of my fears.” Psalm 34:4
From the nurses to our wonderful doctor to the
man with the scary needle anesthesiologist to even the fun reggae music playing throughout the surgery, I have never sensed the power of His presence more strongly in my whole life!
“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want…” Psalm 23:1
Then the Happy Baby came into the world and the atmosphere in the room changed.
Things got very serious and intense and the look in my Happy Hubby’s eyes told me that all was not well.
But even as I stared at the blue curtain, wishing I could burn holes into it with my eyes so that I could see what was happening as they worked on our little guy on the other side, I felt a supernatural peace.
“You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.” Isaiah 26:3
Before they whisked him away, I had a few brief cheek-to-cheek moments with our precious miracle.
He is still in the NICU, so, sweet Happy Home Friends, would you please say a prayer that our little man would get breathing on his own?
My arms are aching to hold my baby, and I am so looking forward to nursing…
How these unexpected trials cause us to press into the Father as we trust in Him to be our strength, our shield, and our help (Psalm 28:7)!
Thank you from the bottom of our Happy Home’s heart!