We’ve got some CRAZY news to share!
I’ve mentioned a few times over the last several years that we would love to have another baby, but every month, the Lord said, “Not yet.” The path of infertility is one we know very well and, while that is never an easy path, we have learned (and daily remind ourselves!) to trust that the Lord knows best.
But I kept feeling this nudge that our little family was not done yet. On our way home from our Thanksgiving road trip, we stopped at a Cracker Barrel and when the hostess asked us how many were in our party, I blurted out, “5!” – even though there were obviously only 4 of us. At the time I blamed it on too much turkey and stuffing and sitting in a car for 15 hours with 2 stir-crazy boys, but I guess the Lord was writing a message in my heart for what was coming!
But then January came and I felt this total peace that if He didn’t want our family to grow, that was okay. I have been swamped with my new job this year and I love it, the boys keep us plenty busy with their constant shenanigans (FOR EXAMPLE – after this photo shoot at Dunkin’ Donuts, Jet apparently had pocketed a bunch of coffee sugar packets and came home to experiment with them so when I was putting him to bed I discovered piles of sugar around his bedroom #awesome), and life just feels full and lovely. Both Mr. B. and I surrendered our desire for another child completely. I got rid of the last of my baby and maternity things and we breathed a sigh of contentment.
That’s when things got crazy. Around Valentine’s Day I knew something was up – I was crying about EVERYTHING, psycho moody about EVERYTHING, and I was consuming large amounts of french fries. Also my stomach began looking like I had swallowed an entire spaghetti squash WHOLE.
So after a few hundred tests, some blood work and an ultrasound, we have confirmation that there’s a munchkin on the way!
Of course I have already had 40,000 fears with this pregnancy since everything-that-happened-with-Jethro. BUT Mr. B. keeps encouraging me to Philippians 4:6-7 already! And then one of my sweet friends gave me a shirt that says Faith Over Fear – a message that I need to cling to every second.
God opened my womb again and like Leah said with Judah, I want to declare with eyes of faith and a heart of gratitude, “This time I will praise the Lord.”
Will you join us in prayer for this munchkin? I am specifically praying for this little one to have mental and physical strength and also I am praying for him/her to know Jesus annnnd also I am praying that this baby will eat whatever I put in front of them. Please Lord, no more picky eaters. I need someone who can just eat a PB&J for-the-love.
Now you know why I haven’t blogged in 3 weeks! I am spending most of my days going to work and then coming home to crawl into bed. And also eat hamburgers. Lots and lots of hamburgers.
Thank you for celebrating with us and for being such a precious community. I love doing life with you!