The last several days I have been struggling with anxiety about a decision I have to make concerning Noah. I never knew so much about worry until becoming a mom! There are so many choices, so many decisions! Do we use regular diapers or cloth diapers? Do we eat organic or not organic? Do we vaccinate or not vaccinate or do just a few vaccinations? Do we give Noah cow’s milk or goat’s milk or almond milk or rice milk or banana milk or kefir milk…??? Seriously! I mean, has anyone else ever heard of kefir milk?!? Sometimes I feel like someone turned a blender on inside my head without the lid! All that to say, this morning I sat down to talk to the Lord about what’s been concerning me, and He gave me a couple of nuggets that I pray will stay with me FOREVER.
1. Noah is God’s baby. Period. End of story. There is nothing I can do on this earth to interrupt the plans God has for Him. At some point I just have to make a decision, do what I think is best for my family, and then just trust the Lord with the rest.
2. I want Noah to see Jesus in me. I want Noah to learn about the greatness of God from my life. This can’t possibly happen when I am drowning in anxiety and fear about cow’s milk! I am an imperfect mother who will make lots of imperfect decisions, but I have a perfect Father who will cover all of my mistakes with His grace. I just have to walk daily in that freedom!
So I will cling to these verses and believe that God’s purpose will stand no matter what.
Isn’t that nice to know?
10 I make known the end from the beginning,
from ancient times, what is still to come.
I say: My purpose will stand,
and I will do all that I please.
11 From the east I summon a bird of prey;
from a far-off land, a man to fulfill my purpose.
What I have said, that will I bring about;
what I have planned, that will I do.