I am sitting on the couch writing while Mr. B. is watching Seinfield and flipping back and forth between the New Year’s Eve countdown on Channel 10. We just might make it to midnight this year!
Earlier we took down our Christmas tree and cleaned the house.
The boys are having a sleepover at Grammie’s.
It’s a peaceful night and I am thinking about the new year.
Every year I usually get excited to set new goals and make some resolutions.
But this year I’m just not feeling it. I think it’s because I am ALWAYS self-examining. I am daily looking at my life and trying to figure out ways to be better. I read a million parenting books and blogs. I sincerely desire to raise kids that love Jesus and I want to love Him well too! But lately I have been feeling the weight of my failures and the many ways I don’t measure up to the expectations I have for myself.
I am beginning to think that too much self-examination is unhealthy!
This was recently confirmed when a friend of mine told me that I think too much and need to spend more time watching TV.
I do have some dreams for the new year. Some just between me and the Lord. Some y’all are going to hear about in the coming weeks (like the release of my very first eBook – woohoo!)!! And some involving me not spending so much money at the grocery store.
But ultimately, this year I really want to learn the art of resting in the Lord’s grace. I am specifically seeking Him about freedom from all. the. guilt. I want to know Him and His kindness in a fresh way.
What about you? Do you have any resolutions for 2016? Or are you taking the year off like me?
– Julie 🙂